Ngh... [ Ruruka bristles defensively at Seiko's question and the confusion on her face, not at all expecting for the girl to have heard her. Even if Seiko hadn't heard what she had said, the fact that she had heard her mumble something puts Ruruka in a tight corner that she would prefer not to be in. It would mean that she would have to confess what it was she had said, which was damaging to her pride. After all, it had been childish, in retrospect, to be so jealous of someone that she had once considered a friend to the point it had transformed into hatred and resentment that swallowed her entire being, and the thought of Seiko knowing that she had envied her in the first place was too embarrassing in and of itself. Therefore, she does her best not to convey her nervousness, even if her voice betrays her by sounding unconvincing. ] N-Nothing...how about you just mind your own damn business?
[ It wasn't her finest line, but as far as Ruruka was concerned, it was better than being honest with her feelings. Even if she mostly confided in Izayoi and allowed him to see the weaker side of her, there were some things that even she couldn't trust him with, preferring to keep them bottled up inside of her; but this was Kimura she was talking to, so she would continue to keep them bottled up inside of her. She would keep her secrets, even if they had gradually developed into overwhelming despair that eventually drove her to do what she had done to herself.
...Not like she'd ever tell anyone who, if at all, might appear here later about that either - least of all Kimura. After a moment of silence, she gives a heavy sigh, rolling her eyes. ]
But fine, I'll humor you for a bit. It's not like I have anything else to do. If you didn't "tamper with anything" like you claim, then how the hell do you explain everything that happened at the practical exam? ...Well? I'm listening. That's what you wanted, right? For me to listen to you? Though, I doubt you even can explain it. After all, I got the exact drug you told me to, and let's not forget that those bombs were found in your bag. ...I bet that dog was your doing, too.
[ In her eyes, the evidence was fully stacked against Seiko. Of course she would believe that everything that transpired that day was the girl's fault. She didn't want to believe it, but the proof was right there in front of her. What else was she supposed to think upon seeing that? She couldn't exactly think that the girl meant no ill will towards her when she had never once felt confident about the validity of their friendship.
She couldn't deny her other words, however. What made her expulsion and the hardship that followed easier was the fact that she hadn't been alone - that she had Izayoi around to rely on. For as long as she could remember, she had never been alone; he had always been around, which was why it hurt so much to be alone now. Was this karmic retribution? She knew she didn't deserve to see him again, to be reunited with him, because of what she had done to him, but it didn't make her want that to happen any less. She would give anything to see him again, to have him at her side.
To not be alone.
If Seiko only knew how alone Ruruka felt right now, but if she admitted that, she would be showing weakness; so she doesn't, but she can't entirely mask her discomfort. ]
Oh, please. Don't give me that line. You weren't truly alone - you had the vice-chairman and his lackeys on your side. Did you really think I would forget you telling me that?
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[ It wasn't her finest line, but as far as Ruruka was concerned, it was better than being honest with her feelings. Even if she mostly confided in Izayoi and allowed him to see the weaker side of her, there were some things that even she couldn't trust him with, preferring to keep them bottled up inside of her; but this was Kimura she was talking to, so she would continue to keep them bottled up inside of her. She would keep her secrets, even if they had gradually developed into overwhelming despair that eventually drove her to do what she had done to herself.
...Not like she'd ever tell anyone who, if at all, might appear here later about that either - least of all Kimura. After a moment of silence, she gives a heavy sigh, rolling her eyes. ]
But fine, I'll humor you for a bit. It's not like I have anything else to do. If you didn't "tamper with anything" like you claim, then how the hell do you explain everything that happened at the practical exam? ...Well? I'm listening. That's what you wanted, right? For me to listen to you? Though, I doubt you even can explain it. After all, I got the exact drug you told me to, and let's not forget that those bombs were found in your bag. ...I bet that dog was your doing, too.
[ In her eyes, the evidence was fully stacked against Seiko. Of course she would believe that everything that transpired that day was the girl's fault. She didn't want to believe it, but the proof was right there in front of her. What else was she supposed to think upon seeing that? She couldn't exactly think that the girl meant no ill will towards her when she had never once felt confident about the validity of their friendship.
She couldn't deny her other words, however. What made her expulsion and the hardship that followed easier was the fact that she hadn't been alone - that she had Izayoi around to rely on. For as long as she could remember, she had never been alone; he had always been around, which was why it hurt so much to be alone now. Was this karmic retribution? She knew she didn't deserve to see him again, to be reunited with him, because of what she had done to him, but it didn't make her want that to happen any less. She would give anything to see him again, to have him at her side.
To not be alone.
If Seiko only knew how alone Ruruka felt right now, but if she admitted that, she would be showing weakness; so she doesn't, but she can't entirely mask her discomfort. ]
Oh, please. Don't give me that line. You weren't truly alone - you had the vice-chairman and his lackeys on your side. Did you really think I would forget you telling me that?